i remember, because cancer won't take him away from me.

i remember when i could sleep.

when we had our whole future planned and were counting down the days.

i remember when your head start hurting.

and the thought of a brain tumor never crossed my mind.

but it had definitely hit yours.
i remember the things we planned that now are blurry vision covered by X-rays.
i remember planning our wedding & the tears that would fall from your eyes.
i remember looking over the city arguing over what we wanted to name our kids.

i remember  you telling me you want to give me the world.

and now you may not be in this cruel world long enough  to do that.

i remember when you took my summer.

and i now i can't even decide if i want it back.

i remember our big  bed with the whitest sheets  that would  feel cool against our burning hearts.

i remember the night i ended it and how you still kissed me.

i remember you waited for my heart to figure itself out because i sure as hell couldn't.

nothing can take you away from my memory not even a million tumors.

i remember when i was 17 and didn't have to remember and only plan.