6.

i'm afraid that   one of these times my lucky number will actually be on the back the fortune of my fortune cookie.

because then it might actually be real, and i won't really know what to do or think.

i'm afraid of waking up.

i'm afraid  of someone breaking in.

of the girl in that ring movie.

and i'm afraid of loving someone too much.

i fear his eyes & his hands

and the inability to say no.

and i'm afraid of  halloween

but not because of the holiday

but because i don't even have true enough friends to make a plan the night of halloween to be confident in it.

and that's  the saddest fear of them all.

so here's to friday night halloween of a popular 17 year old girl with her mom

because that is the most safe option of them all.