we became what we became, not what we wanted

i'm human because somewhere along the way i stopped believing in what i wanted to do and started doing what was easiest. because i believed him when he told me he loved me and wouldn't leave.

because we're all afraid of becoming what we wanted because it wouldn't make our parents proud.
because it wouldn't pay the bills.
because we would have to leave the state and live on our own in this crazy real world. heaven forbid.

well screw the girl with the flower head band with the rich daddy who is most popular but will settle for the BYU returned missionary when she's 19 and has to post an instagram each day just to make her feel secure about herself.
and screw the college coach that said you needed to do this, this, and this to get what you wanted.
and forget the people who said hi to your best friend standing right next you walking down the hall over and over, and over again. not you.
because you have made mistakes, and she hasn't.
and feel bad for the boy who cheated on you but claimed he loved you, and shame on you for ever believing him.
and just because your mom doesn't believe in love because of her divorce, doesn't mean that you can't.

go make mistakes. and stop feeling guilty for them.

because you're human.